Someone make me crazy now..>_<..life is always tested with alleged .. patience and perseverance are often required to get a blessing from Allah to hold life...I wondered sometimes whether God will not love me because I harp temporary happiness .. always tested with sadness .. I handle it but the more I look sad and lonely .. when God wanted to show and provide guidance and repentance on my street that I realized I was actually too preoccupied with something the world that I live and forget..I just want perfection even though I know that everything is not perfect human happiness .. drop would suffice as long as I can feel what the grace of fun .. furthermore, now I have to work because the important tasks I have to do is catch up to shape the future success when I  grows up..high expectations of the parents should be implemented for the sake of encouraging their name .. but the trouble was instigated laziness myself .. when I want to realize my position in education .. just hope in the hearts of passion but did not work .. I personally want to achieve I do not understand myself ..tomorrow and the next, I have to strong-willed and try to study hard in order to improve educational performance .. the saying goes "where there is a will there is a way" .. hahaha .. my english .. so funny and embarrassing, I want to ask sorry .. a person can change his destiny to be better, right?